Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year!!

As I said on facebook...

Dear 2008,
Don't let the door hit you where the Lord split you.


We went bowling tonight for the New Years Eve party here on post. It was fun, but a little pricey, and we had to share a lane with a father and his teenage daughter (which was undoubtedly more frustrating for them than for us). I actually had a really nice time and the boys were so good!!! I wanted to lay the smack down on some other people for not watching their own kids, but that's another story...

But the boys were beat by 10:30 so we left around 11 and came home and they were all asleep by 11:30. David had said he wanted us to wake him up for the new year, so we did (Man, that boy goes out HARD!) and we went across the street to our neighbor's to light sparklers with them.

As the New Year dawned, I stepped in a pile of dog crap. I hope that's not a sign. 2008 was bad enough.
Then Nathan, as we were toasting our sparkling cranberry juice, loving looked at me and said, "Happy Poo Year."

Indeed.

Uh-oh.

Yes, I am one of *those* people. Here's some little cakes I made. It's Snape and Granger. I wrote a super silly story to go along with it (I giggled like mad whilst writing it) but you'd probably want to vomit.

Anywho... it's a good example of my growing love for fondant...

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Our big splurge...

Okay, so most of our furniture predates the personal computer.... or my husband's birth. Yes, we could use a new couch... I'm not even sure where the one we have came from. And I have to keep in stock my sofa covers cause the things is really questionable. Anyways... it's old. We need a new one. But why buy one when our kids are just gonna funk it up anyhow. We need a bedroom set. I'd at least like to have a new dresser, seeing as the one we have came from DI and cost us $2. It is missing a drawer and we have to shove the drawers shut to fit all our stuff inside, and we still have plastic shelving in the bedroom covered in clothes. Short of it... I would LOVE a bed with an actual headboard and footboard and a place to put my clothes. But we'll get to that eventually, in fact I fell in love with a real rustic looking set at the place we went and bought our first BIG purchase in a very long time. But it'll have to wait, cause for now.... *drumroll* we bought the boys a bunk bed! They love it! I love it! We just haven't gotten a full size mattress for the bottom bunk yet so Ike Ike is on his crib mattress still, surrounded by blankets and animals. They have been on it since we got it put together. Even Sammy has mounted it a few times. Yikes. We haven't got the safety boards on the tops yet though, so let's all hope David doesn't fall out. It didn't have any predrilled holes for them and our drill takes a day to charge and some dummy (points at self) left it unplugged so it was dead. He sure is a mover in his sleep so I'm a little worried. Oh well, what's a broken arm, right? Oi... *goes to gather more blankets for a soft landing*...

Monday, December 29, 2008

Christmas

So rather than make the longest post of pictures ever, I made a slideshow... hopefully it'll work in the right order. *shrugs*



If you click on the 4 little arrows in the bottom right hand corner of the screen, it'll make it bigger. And if you click on "show info" at the top right of the big screen, it'll give you captions. ((hugs))

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Heehee!





Happy Holidays!!!!!

Eeeeep....

And I live in a place where this probably won't show in theatres! Argh!!!!!!!! This looks really good... and I love Viggo, Jason, and Mark! Eeep!!!

Monday, December 22, 2008

A day...

There's something... macabre?... morbid?... depressing.... about getting 9 holiday cards in the mail... and a large yellow envelope containing your mother's death certificate.

I felt all at once loved, cared about, and like I wanted to break something...

Sunday, December 21, 2008

MyFaceLOL... a new one!

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Thanks for all the virtual hugs last week. Needed them! Am doing better now.... ((hugs)) to my friends!!!

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Here goes...

I'm sure you've all been wondering when I would finally break down and type THE RANT. I have been doing okay. Not great, but okay. I feel like I am going through this alone right now, as regards to ... I should stop. I wouldn't want anyone here to think me an ungrateful friend. It would just be nice to have a shoulder to cry on... But I don't want pity friendship either. Why is that all the people who seem to care either don't know me very well, or are too far away to get an actual hug from...

THIS IS HARD!!!! I might let on that it is fine, but inside I wanna SCREAM and break something!!!!!!!

So here goes my day/week in a nutshell...


Why do I have to have my breakdowns in public? Well, I think I figured it out. I'm okay on my own, but apparently I am surrounded by people who have no thought for others at all.

Went to the post office last week and had a breakdown there... told them they were full of shit and etc etc... effing etc etc... It was lovely, one of my more graceful moments... long story I won't go into detail...

And then I had a minor breakdown at the commissary last week when the 'go to that line there' person told me to go to the Express lane and I had more than 20 items. I went there but I got some nasty looks from people, hence the breakdown...

And today... Today Seals It.

I never thought I didn't like living here, always seemed like a nice place, but I am officially over it. I went to the commissary with my 2 smallest this morning, just got back actually, couldn't contain it anymore, have to vent... anyways... Sammy is a bit of a handful. Sweet as anything, but he lives up to his 21 months. We call him Sammity Calamity or The DestructiKon around the house. Anyways, the whole time we were there he's doing this high pitched thing where he does the indian call with his hand on his mouth only instead of doing it in a regular voice, he's doing it kind of shrill. I am TRYING to make him stop. I can ignore it, I'm used to it, but I am still concerned about other people's hearing, so I am trying to make him stop even going so far as to give him the binky to make him stop, candy, whatever, he doesn't want to stop, he's having fun. I even put my hands over his mouth and tried to get him to stop... doesn't help that it's nap time.

Anywho, we are in line to be told which line to go to, and this "woman" behind me bellows... BELLOWS "KNOCK IT OFF!!!" I was stunned, I turned around to look at her, to see if she had ACTUALLY just yelled at my son. I just looked at her, gobsmacked. She says "Don't look at me, lady. He's in my space too." I murmured, still gobsmacked, "He's just a baby."

Her: "I shouldn't have to listen to it!!"

Me: "You don't yell at other people's children!"

Her: "Well, then control your child!!"

That was it. THAT WAS IT!!! I "said", "I have been trying to since I got in this damn place!!!"

She rolled her eyes and waved her hand dismissing me.

Me: "Don't yell at my child!!!" And cue the tears...

You just don't know what's going on in other peoples lives. If everyone could just stop, slow down, and think about the other person first, this world would be a happier place.

Today my friend across the street had her visiting teachers come over. They don't visit me, but they still brought me a beautiful cookie jar filled with Christmas cookies... so people aren't complete s**ts... just the ones who...

*stopping*

Update:

And you know, I realize my children aren't perfect. I'm not blind! I DO try to discipline them...

And maybe that woman was having a crummy week herself... *grumbles* still shoulda handled it better...

Anyways... I don't have a problem with other people telling my kids to be quiet or whatever, sometimes it's nice to have reinforcements... but don't yell at them and then tell me I'm not doing my job.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Argh.

Anyone have any old Shark Boy and Lava Girl McDonalds Happy Meal toys buried somewhere in a box? I can't seem to win them on Ebay... I was SO close!!! (And no, I don't really want to spend over $20.00 for someone's old MCDs toys...)

Apparently the only SB and LG figures made were for happy meals...

Hence my building of SB and LG puppets for Christmas... (Shhhhh, don't tell David). Thank goodness for hair... otherwise they'd both look like the kermit the frog with elephantitis...

I'll post pics when SB is done. LG is done and she's... uh... smokin'.

:D

I know it's tacky...

But when has that stopped me? LOL

NOOO!!! NOT SANTA!!!!! :D


Monday, December 15, 2008

Another Cake...



I made one like this for the same lady last spring. But this one has a christmas theme! :)

I really would like to do this more... oh well, maybe after we move, I can get down to bidness...

Friday, December 12, 2008

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Huh. If you get the weird black and blue faces, you may have to try refreshing the page... weird. Where'd mah boyz go?

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Procession Fail

What I would give to go HERE!!

http://www.spitalfieldsmusic.org.uk/index.php?pfid=2&cid=10&eid=7

Yep, just me. Just a roundtrip for me, just for a week. *sigh* Someday...

Subject: Merger Bulletin From The Wailing Wall Street Daily

Continuing the current trend of large-scale mergers and acquisitions, it was announced today at a press conference that Christmas and Hanukkah will merge. An industry source said that the deal had been in the works about 1300 years.

While details were not available at press time, it is believed that the overhead cost of having twelve days of Christmas and eight days of Hanukkah was becoming prohibitive for both sides. By combining forces, we're told, the world will be able to enjoy consistently high-quality service during the Fifteen Days of Chrismukah, as the new holiday is being called.

Massive layoffs are expected, with lords a-leaping and maids a-milking being the hardest hit.

As part of the conditions of the agreement, the letters on the dreydl, currently in Hebrew, will be replaced by Latin, thus becoming unintelligible to a wider audience.

Also, instead of translating to "A great miracle happened there," the message on the dreydl will be the more generic "Miraculous stuff happens."

In exchange, it is believed that Jews will be allowed to use Santa Claus and his vast merchandising resources for buying and delivering their gifts.

One of the sticking points holding up the agreement for at least three hundred years was the question of whether Jewish children could leave milk and cookies for Santa even after having eaten meat for dinner.

A breakthrough came last year, when Oreos were finally declared to be Kosher. All sides appeared happy about this.

A spokesman for Christmas, Inc., declined to say whether a takeover of Kwanzaa might not be in the works as well. He merely pointed out that, were it not for the independent existence of Kwanzaa, the merger between Christmas and Chanukah might indeed be seen as an unfair cornering of the holiday market.

Fortunately for all concerned, he said, Kwanzaa will help to maintain the competitive balance. He then closed the press conference by leading all present in a rousing rendition of

"Oy Vey, All Ye Faithful."

Monday, December 8, 2008

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Another tradition down...

So we finished the gingerbread house today. Well, I finished mine and the boys finished theirs. Huh, I haven't taken any pics of theirs yet... will have to do that... I'll call it the shrieking outhouse... you'll see...

So yes, this year, I decided to make the shrieking shack. Funny how you measure something to come out crooked and it comes out straight... isn't it usually the other way around? Hm.

Yeah, the little black thing in the back is Snape crawling through the tunnel outside the whomping willow.... :D Hee hee!!

Yeah, and my dough was screwy!! I made two batches of the same dough and one batch came out great and the other one... spread or something. And I followed them both the same. Weird. And a pain in the butt when trying to fit the pieces...



Saturday, December 6, 2008

HAHAHAHA! And totally legit...

You seriously should check out his website. His bio is hysterical.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Home again, Home again...

So I'm home. I left yesterday, after much running around, about 10:30 and got home about 9:30-10 last night. Looooooong drive. I've taken longer drives that haven't felt as long as this. Fussy kids, etc. The nice thing was gas was cheap. (Man... something in my office stinks....)
Anyhow, I was surprised I got as much into the car as I did. And I came home to a house that had been lived in for almost 4 weeks by a ... father and his 6 year old son... yippee for me!
So I sent today doing laundry and cleaning, then tonight we went to the on-post tree lighting, where David's cub scouts handed out programs, then we came home and did our own tree and decorations...
Here's a few pics of before I left. Monday Isaac said we should go to the zoo, and since we didn't have too much else to be done, we did!



Sammy spent the whole time at the zoo leaning forward in the stroller like, "Dude, what is That!?!"

Went out to the gravesite Wednesday morning before I left. I was thrilled to see that the flowers we had stuck in the ground were still poking up. The heads of the roses were dropping though so I pulled the petals off and sprinkled them around. AND I was super thrilled to see that her wildflowers seed had already sprouted!!!! :D



The tree lighting... the one is of Nathan and the boys in line for Santa... I love what Sammy is doing. It sums him up so perfectly... little stinker. He ran around the place like a nut job the whole time we were there...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

ok but this just made me laugh... i need drugs.

Oh yeah, I'm great peachy keen!!! thanks for asking ...

no bother my mom just died!!!!!


Do you have any freaking clue how many times I've wanted to call her!>!?>!??! Or checked my flipping phone to see if she's called????? Or thought, I wonder what mom would think of this??/


HUH!?!?!???!

Have I mentioned that this week has SUCKED????

Oh, wait... I'm sure I have.

Yeah, so today I finished packing almost everything into the car, ready to go as soon as I can. I don't know. I am just anxious to get home. I am anxious to be at my house, with my family, with my own bed, and my kids' own beds, and get ready for christmas, and get out of this apartment, and get things done. I'm not a patient person. I've never claimed to be one.

But I've had two EXTREMELY frustrating events happen in the last 2 weeks (one of course doesn't even come CLOSE to the other, but it's still very heartbreaking nonetheless). Mom, and my silly ring. I am so frustrated about the ring!!!! I have no CLUE where it could be, I've scoured everything. Looked everywhere. And I'm going back over to my friends' house tomorrow to look again. And today I tried to order minutes for my phone online. I did, they took my money just fine, but the dang minutes wouldn't show up on my phone so I called and of course the guy's an IDIOT and my minutes run out cause he's screwing around and then I have no way of taking care of it cause my phone is DEAD!!!! So I call Nathan from a payphone and tell him to take care of it and he can't till I can talk to him but I can't freakin talk to him cause I have no phone!!! So I get on I-chat (thank goodness for I-chat) and he calls the idiots and we finally get that taken care of, but I was waiting for the stupid laser engraver to tell me the headstone was done, but he never called, so I called him and he said THURSDAY!!!!! WTH happened to Tuesday?!?!?!?!?! So now do I stay or do I go!?!?!? I want to go home so bad. I want to go home!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not that I don't have friends here or that I want to put this behind me that quickly... I just need to go home. *cries* I want to go home! *stomps foot and pouts* Damn them for making me miss out on seeing her headstone, oh I know, if I wanted to bad enough I'd stick around... right? Guilt guilt guilt...

And I know there's still things I need to do. I hate leaving things undone, but some I can't even do till I get teh death cert in the mail, and it goes to AL. UUURGH. I still have several things I have to go do in the a.m. before I can leave. I'm just ... I really wanted to have the headstone done before I left.

Am I a bad daughter for not sticking around to see it done?

Probably.
How the bloody hell am I supposed to fit ALL THIS into my mini-van!?!?!?!?!?!

Monday, December 1, 2008

Sunday, November 30, 2008

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to
new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints
on our hearts, and we are never ever the same."
~ Flavia Weedn

Success!

The monkey has been located....


I think I'd lose my head right now if it weren't screwed on...

Missing

And now we have one missing monkey. If Monkey Toes is at anyone's house, please let me know... I'm just as upset about the stupid monkey as I am my missing wedding ring. Did I mention this week has SUCKED????

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Our week... not nearly enough pics...







Yep, not so many pics, eh? We were ... distracted...


I ought to write out some thank you cards....

Some pics of her grave...






Here's some piccies of her gravesite. We took all the flowers out of their vases and "decorated" her grave (see the pic with Ike Ike in it...), then planted wildflower seed and a fern. It was lovely. :)
OKay... so the widget on the side is a list of some of my recommendations and if you buy from following my link, I get credits on Amazon... *snerk*

Just thought I'd explain.

Mom's Tribute Video played at her memorial...

Seems I've lost my wedding ring and my mother all in one week.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Thanks...

Just wanted to thank all of you for your thoughts and well wishes these last 2 weeks. We are now in the process of cleaning out the apartment. It's harder than I anticipated, and I've been taking pictures of her clothes and shoes ( how silly...). I can't take all of them with me and they are so quintessentially her.... all the way down to the light up flip flops...

We went out on tuesday and found a piece of granite to have engraved as her headstone/marker thingy. It was perfect. Like it was made for it's purpose. I will take pictures of it and share when I get it back next week. I am anxious to get home. I hope it will be done by Monday so I can take it to the funeral home and get on my way back home. I don't know if that's good or bad, but I am ready to get this stuff finished. It's hard. I would like to stay and see the headstone placed at her grave, but I don't know how long it will take them to do that.

Nathan and David went back to AL today. Matthew and Connie left super early this morning also. So it's back to me and the two little guys.

So for any of you who have been through this before... what do I get rid of? I can't keep everything, though it's not like she had that much. I guess I'll keep all but the clothes.... hm.

I haven't mentioned much about the service, guess I should. It was lovely. I don't feel like going over it right now, so I'm gonna copy a post from my friend Kristin's blog. Hopefully she won't mind! There were so many lovely tributes to my mom on various friends' blogs. I'm so grateful for my many, many friends!

"""On Monday, we flew down to Houston and back for the funeral of a special woman named Gail. We had the opportunity to have Gail live with us for a year while she was undergoing cancer treatment in Houston. Living with Gail was a lot of fun. She is a vivacious person who loved life.
Gail had a green funeral. I had never heard of this before, but it was truly the most beautiful funeral I have ever witnessed. Gail's body was not preserved and she was not buried in a coffin. Her body was wrapped in muslin by some of her dearest friends and then draped in a beautiful white cloth. I was reminded of Christ being wrapped in muslin by the women who prepared his body. Then as I saw Gail's body lying there draped in the cloth, I couldn't help but think that she was a bit like Maid Marian or Ophelia or some other romatic figure. Gail had all female pall bearers which was also so appropriate for her and her resting place looked like a forest. It was peaceful, beautiful and natural.
Her funeral was very personal with tributes from each of her three children and two musical numbers sung a capella. David (Kristin's hubby) sang one of them and he did a beautiful job. Per Gail's request, there was a jump house out behind the church for the children to play. She made all of her friends promise to jump - and they did. I think the entire day was a great tribute to her and I think she would have really enjoyed it.
Goodbye, Gail. We'll miss you."""

So that's what it was. The bounce house was a hit, and Matthew and I ran out and jumped in it after the service, followed by mom's dear friends. I wished I had been out there during that little ceremony!!!

Anyways, we've been very blessed during the last several weeks. The yayas stepped up and took care of so many things for me, and that made it so much easier for me to deal with her loss and just focus on spending time with her. They even brought me diapers! And my Spring friends were so fantastic, watching the boys for me so I didn't have to worry about them.

Thank you all. And those of you who sent cards and well wishes!!!

Monday, November 24, 2008

Wow.

I'm so very tired. Physically and emotionally drained. Part of me wants to tell everyone to just go away... the other part wants to ... no wait, both parts of me want to tell everyone to go away... problem is I wanna go away too. Far away.

I know I should be focusing on telling all of you about the funeral and such, and I will, but it will probably be tomorrow. I am very beat right now and just wanna curl up and have a good cry. Tomorrow, we have some things we have to finish... go get a head stone thingy... and take the flowers out to her grave. I will tell you this though, the graveside service was beautiful. Quiet and lovely. And so very sweet. The chapel memorial was nice as well. Beautiful music. But I am tired now. I think I am so drained and tired that I can't even cry for very long. The eyes tear up and then I just seem to shut down. I'm just tired.



DId I mention that I'm tired?

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Done.

Mom passed away this afternoon.

2:53 pm...

We will be having the service tomorrow afternoon, graveside for family and close friends at 3:00 and then the memorial service at the church at 4:30pm followed by the wake. We would like anyone who can to attend. It would mean a lot to me.... well, us.

Tired.

That word hardly even begins to cover it. I am feeling really lazy right now, so if you want a detailed update, scroll down and follow the link to MattnConnie's blog. That pretty much sums it up.

I'm grateful for the time I've had with my brothers. It has been nice rebonding with them.

I am amazed and confused by mom's ... tenacity(?)...

I am exhausted because we haven't been getting any sleep and last night was our no-sleep-climax... we're all beat. Looks like a massacre in here, bodies strewn across the floor...

I'm impressed by my brothers' calm when I was totally losing it last night. (again, see mattnconnie's blog)

Mostly, I'm just tired. It's hard to focus on what you're feeling when you are almost numb...

This is one roller coaster ride I wanna get off.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Friday Morning

I am not sure how much more of this I can take. I feel like I'm gonna lose my flippin' mind.

It's a testament to how strong she was, and how big a heart she had that she is still holding on. Is it wrong that I wanna scream at her to just go, already? Probably. And Selfish too. It's just been such a long fight and I don't just mean the last couple weeks/days. I keep thinking she's got to have some reason for hanging around and what am I not doing to help ease the transition??

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

more

I'm so anxious for Matthew to get here now. Her BP is 70 over 40 now. And her pulse is going up to compensate. I wish I knew more people's phone numbers...

Tuesday so far

Frank is here now. Matthew will be here this afternoon.

When Frank got here, and we told her he was here, her eyes flew open. I know she has been waiting to see her boys.

Will post more soon.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Monday... so far.

Her nurse came. She was amazed at how quickly she's changed.

Crisis Care will be here tonight and will be here 24/7 now.

Matthew comes in Wed night, Frank comes in Thursday at 1:00.

Update later...

Amen.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Sunday

This website helped me today.

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/cancer/CA00048

Today hasn't been quite as stressful. Lorraine, Marilyn, and Rachel all came over for a while so I could get the boys out, and my dear sweet friends here have arranged to take the kids everyday this week, and some next week. We also have meals every night starting Thursday.

She's about the same as yesterday. I am still amazed at how quickly this has happened.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Frustrating!

DAMN Odyssey to hell for not giving us the tools we need to do this. I need a bedside commode, or mattress pads. I'm surprised she didn't just break her hip. She doesn't want me to talk about it on here. She just called me in there and told me. My poor mom. I can't do this alone. It's not physically(!!!) possible.

Hmmmm

OKay so the nurse just came... *yeah, I know you're busy but it's not like i freaking call you here every damn day so don't act like a jerk*...

*deep breath* He thinks it's more progression of the disease than ammonia. Are her ammonia levels high? Probably. But he says hew thinks it's just progression of the disease. So, do my bros need to come now? He said no. They would be fine waiting, cause she's still young. Which will also make this more lengthy, cause her body is still resilient. But he said it may have even spread to the brain now. Gheez I hope not. SHe already hates being flighty in the head. I don't want this to drag on for her.

And she has low blood pressure so she is weak and will fall if she tries to stand. Makes it hard to do this alone here.

Questions?

...

And will someone tell me why the damn remote for my digital cable won't work!!!?!?!??!

More

Go Here to learn why I worry so much today!


She has Lactalose!!!! No one told her it would prevent this, they just told her it would make her poop. It made her EXPLODE. So she hasn't wanted to take it. I haven't pushed it. Just given her sennakot to help her poop, which she isn't doing. Or peeing. If I had KNOWN!!! I would have forced her to take it. As it is, she hasn't pooped, and I've given her two doses since this a.m. when I learned this from one of my online harry potter friends who is a nurse!!! UGH!!!! Why aren't they here yet so I can talk about this!?!?! Odyssey Hospice is not going in my happy book for today.

Rough day...

Mom hasn't been herself. Her muscle control is going. Can't hold a fork. Really wanted to go to Garden Ridge today so we did. Didn't know if I should take her, but she wanted to go. She couldn't hold the handle on the little cart forward to make it go any more than like 4 feet at a time. No strength, and she kept blaming it on the cart, saying it wanted to stop her. Been sleeping since we got home, woke her for drugs twice, and to move her from couch to bed. She nearly fell again walking. She has no strength. I had a minor breakdown tonight, and realized hospice was sucking at their job. Called for a nurse to come and see her. Still waiting for her to show up. Not very happy with them. I told the triage nurse my concerns, and she said they would send someone out, but there's was not much they could do. Uh, hell yes, there is. You can come and help me so I'm not doing this by MYSELF! I know I need to ask for more help. It's just that she's gotten so much worse so fast. I need the nurses to come here and tell me if she'll snap out of this, or if this is it and I need to get my brothers here now. UGH!

I need to ask for more help I need to ask for more help I need to ask for more help... I know this. I will... tomorrow.

Tonight I just want them to come and see her and assess... asses.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Okay...

So, that didn't quite keep me smiling all day.

Mom woke up this morning feeling great. Her pain from yesterday was all gone, so we gave her a shower and then she laid down on the couch and had something to eat. Frank called, which made her happy, and the boys watched cartoons for a bit. About lunch time she was getting a little more sleepy, and by the afternoon she was not making sense, not understanding me, and having muscle spasms. I just called the nurse. I'm worried her hypercalcemia is coming back, which scares me. All week long, I've been like 'Oh she's gonna be around for while.' And then she has a day like this. She's been sleeping all day, and it worries me when she almost passes out mid-sentence. We were watching Spongebob and she was taking it VERy seriously, which was both amusing, and scared the heck outta me.

Anyways, I'm waiting for a nurse to call me back.

Don't anyone freak out. I'll post again when I hear something. I just needed to vent... the boys are in bed. Thank heavens for that.

I got a few minutes while the baby is asleep...



ROFLMBO!!!!! This one might keep me smiling all day!

*snerk* Hold on let me find some leaves to wear...

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Yeah, I really like how my second result would have been vampire!!! :P

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Well, here goes...

So, I got here, after an 11 hour drive, on Saturday night. Three of mom's friends from Nashville were here visiting for the weekend, which was nice for her. Sunday, she had to give a talk in church and she did a great job. She sat up front in a little chair just like the elderly general authorities at conference. After, we came home and then drove over to an apartment complex that I had researched and wanted to put down a deposit. So, we checked it out and it was a very nice little 2 bedroom, one bath place with washer dryer et al. But I had reservations about it. For one, the patio doors opened onto about 4 feet of patio, then a sidewalk, and on the other side of the sidewalk, about 7 feet from the door, was the lake. Yeah, likely one of my kids would have somehow ended up in it. And it was kind of out of the way, and I like being close to her friends and the help. We probably have 3 or 4 people stop by every day to see her. I am really, truly lucky to be coming back here to Texas for this. I have an amazing support group here. So many friends have offered to put us up, or watch my kids, or even help home-school David when he comes. While I like the ward in Alabama, and I'm sure they would have stepped up to the plate, it's just not the same as coming home to people who have known you for years and who have been with you through some tough crap.
Anywho... Needless to say, I didn't go with the apartment. I had done so much research and on paper it seemed so right, but that night after viewing it, we had a heart to heart (at 2 am) and she told me that she just didn't want to see me saddled with a six month lease, because she didn't think she was going to be around much longer. Monday, we went to the bank and picked up some things to make her little 1 bedroom place here a little more comfortable. Tuesday, we went to the Funeral Home and arranged things. It is such a NICE place, and the owner actually drove all the way across town to meet with us, since his local manager was out with his kids (it being a holiday and all...) So we got that squared away, and we drove out to the cemetary. It's lovely. Very small, very new, just a handful of people buried there so far. They have a small section called, uh, Living Oaks, I think, where they do the "green burials" which is what she has always wanted. There is another "green" cemetary in Houston but it is like break out the GPS, no grave markers, and oh yeah, they're putting in a highway or some such thing so we can't promise your grave won't be desecrated. Green burials are becoming increasingly popular and I am glad that she has found such a classy place that provides it for her. After going to the funeral home, she slept.
Yesterday, we went for groceries, and then she slept. Today, she slept most of the day. They came and hooked us up to cable and internet (WAHOOOOOOO!) today and then we sat around and waited for them to deliver the hospital bed and wheelchair... which they never did. They called though and said they'd be here tomorrow.
Mostly, she sleeps. She is in some pain, and is taking morphine for it. She also has some bowel issues and that can get a little crazy in the middle of the night. I worry sometimes (usually in the middle of the night) about staying in this tiny place when it starts to get more chaotic. I have to admit, it does worry me. I appreciate not having to pay the rent on a second place, but I still worry about the space and getting more help. Hospice is currently coming once a week, and they are going to start sending home health aides in to help bathe her and stuff. I can do a lot, but obviously, I can't do it all... especially with the little ones. She is also a little ... I don't know if it's the morphine, or her hearing, or just her illness, but her comprehension of what is going on around her is a little slow sometimes too. I have to repeat things several times and say things very slowly sometimes.
She's not going anywhere yet though. If she can drive the little buggy around the grocery store, she's still doing okay. She just crashes when she gets home. I am trying not to let her do too much, but I also know she wants to get out a little. And I worry about getting the kids out, and leaving her alone too. I don't like the idea of leaving her alone for very long. *sigh* This is tough.

But I am trying to give her what she wants in her final days. That's more important to me than anything.


And David lost his first tooth. :D Nathan better put some piccies up soon, or momma might get mad. :)

*Mwah*

I'm Baaack...

Yup, not gonna make a big post right now, as it's the middle of the day and I have chaos- er- children to manage. I will try to update tonight. But for now...

Friday, November 7, 2008

Happy for Today...




Seriously.. watch it all...

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Mock Elections!?! :)

HAHAHAHA! David just came in totally upset! They had a mock election at the primary school today. He voted for Barack Obama cause his favorite children's book is Harry Potter and his favorite sport is basketball. :D But he was mad cause John McCain won the election at his school. I had to explain that a lot of Army kids have parents who like John McCain cause he was a soldier, and that's probably why. :P

Heehee. I told him he could stay up tonight and watch the real one with us. :)

Monday, November 3, 2008

For Fun...

I got tagged. You have to go to your 4th folder and pick your 4th picture...




Sammy Bammy's first Easter... 2007. What a cutie, huh!?! Who would have thought he would turn into a holy terror? :D Okay, he's not that bad, but he does live up to the name Sammity Calamity... at least once a day...

I tag EVERYONE!

The state of things...

So I was supposed to go pick up my son from school today and talk to his teacher about our options with his schooling and his leaving. Yeah, I forgot.

They just called, almost an hour after I was supposed to be there.

Nathan just ran out the door.

And THAT is the state of my brain, in case anyone was wondering.

Mh-hm...

I found an interesting website today. It's all stuff we basically knew already, but I found the section Prognosis very interesting.

Kidney cancer + Mets to the liver = SOL

Most of you already know about mom, which is why I haven't said much on here about it. I am just in the stages of preparing to go... it's very difficult trying to figure out what the best course of action is...

http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000277.htm
So one of my imaginary online friends went to an NKOTB concert last night. We've been discussing it this morning. I think part of my 13 year old self just died a happy fangirl death vicariously. Seriously. I needed this today.

So I found this vid online of when they were in Houston last month. LOL. Ah, Frank, remember our little concert going adventure? :D

For old time's sake: (Wait, for it, wait for it... the dance is coming.... there it is... 00:45!!!!!)


Can I get a Woot Woot from all my inner-13 year old fangirls?

Just cause I needed a good smile this morning!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Halloween

Not too sure why we didn't get any individual shots of Ike Ike... hmmm. Oh well. It was fun. There weren't nearly as many houses giving out the goods as there were last year. That was a bummer, but they still got TONS of candy...




Wednesday, October 29, 2008

BWAHAHAHAHAhahahahahah!!!

So... I really wanted to do Sweeney Todd but Nathan had to work late, and what's Mrs Lovett without her Sweeney? Yeah, and my dress wasn't working out the way I wanted, so now I still have some time to work on that...

I'll do it Friday night...

So, tonight was the ward Trunk or Treat. Uh-huh. Oh yeah. I won Best Dressed Trunk!!! :P And I totally rocked the Sarah Palin, accent and all! :D
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Big D was Shark Boy... look at that totally awesome costume his momma made!!
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SamBam was rockin it as Michael Phelps... little Speedo that said 'Phelps' on the back!
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Ike Ike was Monkey Toes again... in the costume he wore when he was Sammy's age... *sigh*
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My favorite part of the trunk was my little GOP Elephant on the Lite Brite! I ROCK!!! (Of course, I had my Clinton Campaign grave out there, and the hubby's BB Gun in the back, and a whole bunch of little stuffed animals... etc...
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Twas fun!

Sunday, October 26, 2008

So... I've been planning on going to the church's Trunk or Treat this week dressed as Miss Lovett from Sweeney Todd, with Nathan going as Sweeney himself. The boys are going to be their own things... unless I can incorporate Sammy somehow... mini-Sweeney or something... ANyways... I've been thinking about it and I just don't know if having a trunk full of pies with fingers poking out is in bad taste, or if people will get all weird about the fact that it was an R-rated movie... even though it was a Sondheim musical starring Angela Lansbury in 1979... I ust don't want people to think it's in bad taste... when I think it's awesome... or should we be unoriginal and do a Harry Potter thing? Please answer the poll, and if you have a sec, comment below and tell me what you think...

A little better

Clicky

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Dirty sons of...

Well, we didn't win. Apparently there is no creativity or humor left in this world. We better have at least gotten 2nd place... they only listed the winners right now, have to wait till the paper comes out...

Wow.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

It's RAINING! Tell it to stop raining!! It's screwing with my cobwebs!!!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

There is nothing in this world cuter than a toddler trying to blow a whistle. I will try to get some video of that cause it was priceless...

SamBam knew the noise it was supposed to make and couldn't quite figure it out, so when he blew, he made a squeaky little noise instead. So cute! Dang, you had to be there...

So here it is!!!

This is what we did for the yard this year. It doesn't look like much but it's really been quite a bit of work. Every year they have a yard decorating contest. Last year I got the major shaft!!! They didn't even give me an honorable mention and I had twice as much as the winners had. I was so bummed, but this year we went all out with our design. Basically we call it Attack of the Pygmy Pumpkins... I have more competition this year, yards full of graves and such, but ours is definitely original and creative!!!
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Pumpkin Head Totem Pole

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He's getting it in the head...
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The pygmy king... he's been updated with more gourds since this was taken...

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This dude in the front is getting cooked, and is surrounded by killer pygmies. We have firelights that glow around the bucket.

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This little guy is starting his own totem pole.

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My graveyard... can you read the stones???
They say: My Stock Broker, My Real Estate Agent... Sorry, Kaye... it's a social commentary, nothing personal! :D Clinton Campaign, Big Oil, and Britney's Career...

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This guy tried to take a few out and they got him in the back!!!!

Do you like their little spears? Cute, huh!!? And EEeeevil!!

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The yard... we think we are gonna fill in some of the empty space with more pine needles... they judge tomorrow...


What'dya think!?!?!

I LOVE this little guy!!!