I'm sure you've all been wondering when I would finally break down and type THE RANT. I have been doing okay. Not great, but okay. I feel like I am going through this alone right now, as regards to ... I should stop. I wouldn't want anyone here to think me an ungrateful friend. It would just be nice to have a shoulder to cry on... But I don't want pity friendship either. Why is that all the people who seem to care either don't know me very well, or are too far away to get an actual hug from...
THIS IS HARD!!!! I might let on that it is fine, but inside I wanna SCREAM and break something!!!!!!!
So here goes my day/week in a nutshell...
Why do I have to have my breakdowns in public? Well, I think I figured it out. I'm okay on my own, but apparently I am surrounded by people who have no thought for others at all.
Went to the post office last week and had a breakdown there... told them they were full of shit and etc etc... effing etc etc... It was lovely, one of my more graceful moments... long story I won't go into detail...
And then I had a minor breakdown at the commissary last week when the 'go to that line there' person told me to go to the Express lane and I had more than 20 items. I went there but I got some nasty looks from people, hence the breakdown...
And today... Today Seals It.
I never thought I didn't like living here, always seemed like a nice place, but I am officially over it. I went to the commissary with my 2 smallest this morning, just got back actually, couldn't contain it anymore, have to vent... anyways... Sammy is a bit of a handful. Sweet as anything, but he lives up to his 21 months. We call him Sammity Calamity or The DestructiKon around the house. Anyways, the whole time we were there he's doing this high pitched thing where he does the indian call with his hand on his mouth only instead of doing it in a regular voice, he's doing it kind of shrill. I am TRYING to make him stop. I can ignore it, I'm used to it, but I am still concerned about other people's hearing, so I am trying to make him stop even going so far as to give him the binky to make him stop, candy, whatever, he doesn't want to stop, he's having fun. I even put my hands over his mouth and tried to get him to stop... doesn't help that it's nap time.
Anywho, we are in line to be told which line to go to, and this "woman" behind me bellows... BELLOWS "KNOCK IT OFF!!!" I was stunned, I turned around to look at her, to see if she had ACTUALLY just yelled at my son. I just looked at her, gobsmacked. She says "Don't look at me, lady. He's in my space too." I murmured, still gobsmacked, "He's just a baby."
Her: "I shouldn't have to listen to it!!"
Me: "You don't yell at other people's children!"
Her: "Well, then control your child!!"
That was it. THAT WAS IT!!! I "said", "I have been trying to since I got in this damn place!!!"
She rolled her eyes and waved her hand dismissing me.
Me: "Don't yell at my child!!!" And cue the tears...
You just don't know what's going on in other peoples lives. If everyone could just stop, slow down, and think about the other person first, this world would be a happier place.
Today my friend across the street had her visiting teachers come over. They don't visit me, but they still brought me a beautiful cookie jar filled with Christmas cookies... so people aren't complete s**ts... just the ones who...
*stopping*
Update:
And you know, I realize my children aren't perfect. I'm not blind! I DO try to discipline them...
And maybe that woman was having a crummy week herself... *grumbles* still shoulda handled it better...
Anyways... I don't have a problem with other people telling my kids to be quiet or whatever, sometimes it's nice to have reinforcements... but don't yell at them and then tell me I'm not doing my job.
12 comments:
Oh man, if that lady said that to me... I probably would have slapped her, seriously! I have issues with the post office, becuase when i was like 14 months prego (okay maybe only 9) with Ian, Jason was throwing this royal fit, and this old man yells "Hey kid SHUTUP"! Yep... I cried and left (I wasted an hour in line, becuase of that Jerk) Now I won't take my kids to the post office! I feel for you, girl!
Hey it's Doug's wife.....I just want to say that I think you are amazing. I have been reading about everything you have been though lately and I'm just so impressed with you. And as I was reading this particular blog I remembered when our nieces Belle and Piper died a few years ago and I would burst out in tears in random public places. I would be fine at home and then something would trigger it (seeing a child their age, etc) and I would just lose it. A few times a year this still happens but thankfully less than it used to. And that was over the loss of nieces not my mother. I can't imagine what you are going through, I just wish there was a way I could help all the way over here in Texas. :)
Ew, ew, ew...I agree with Terri, that woman should be slapped for yelling at a BABY. Grrr....
Wish I were close enough for a hug or to take your kids for a few hours.
Next time just join Sammy in "the Yell" and tell people it's a family or religous thing! It may even be turret's syndome what do they know! I wish we could drive down from St. Louis! Miss ya! Love ya!
Why can't people just be nice? I mean she could have started talking to him or yellin' WITH him. I love the anonymous comment. Yes, I think you should definitely do that--maybe take the whole family and do it. That would be good. By the way, I think you're doing a great job. I'm always so impressed with the things you guys do together. For whatver that's worth. Big Hug
Oh.My.God. She would have gotten the evilest eye ever from me and I would have so gotten in HER space.
I understand completely Christina has been in a fit throwing mode lately. At least he was happy and just being loud. When Christina is throwing a fit I tell her to scream louder. I say Christina that is not loud enough could you please scream louder people loook at me like I am crazy but for some reason it helps me to not lose it.
I love you and know what a great Mom you are. Hang in there.
Unbelievable! I think you should take comfort in the fact that the woman who yelled at Sammy was probably a big fat brat as a child and probably had total stangers yelling at her to shut up etc...The other thing is her kids (heaven forbid she has some) do/have done the same thing. All of us (good--at least trying to be good) moms totally understand and we're right there with you! So forget about the crappy/mean people and know we love you!
Why is it that women in the commisary think that they are better than everyone else. She was extrmely rude and should of kept her noise in her own business. Besides a 21 month old is not exactly going to listen to everything their mother tells them. They are still learning right from worng. What would she of said if you picked him up out of the cart and spanked him right in front of her. I am so sorry that you had to deal with someone like that. Some people don't understand how hard it is to have two young childern with you at once. I do think that you handled yourself well, I don't think I would have been that nice to her.
Here's a hug from a distance. Wish you were closer! P.S. Your kids can scream at my house anytime.
WoW. You handled that situation much better than I would have. I've just been looking for a reason to lay the smack down on someone.
Don't let it bother you. She's the one in the wrong. Kids are just a pain sometimes, I'll bet she was one too.
Ironically, this time of year brings out the worst in some people. Don't let that evil get to you. Just minutes ago, I found out someone got our checking account number online and used it to pay off their credit card:)
What a heffer!
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